War I’m Fighting
To be enough for you..for me
I’m so sick and I’m so tired
So damn tired
I’m fucking exhausted of not feeling like me
You telling me what I should be
Tell me how to dress
Where to sit
How to act
When to speak how to speak
Man my facial expressions aren’t even safe,
just laid back headphones in
just swaying to the rhythm
Clearing the static in my head
Cleansing my soul
and I get hit with the negativity
Like some voodoo whammy
Like getting hit with some black magic
Almost leave me black out tragic
I just dodge and weave
Damn I crawl if I have to
Just escape from here
From this place
I can save myself, no I don’t need your help
Shut your mouth shut your mouth
I can’t take anymore attacks
Please don’t give me any More pain
You don’t understand what you’re sayin
Don’t know what you’re doin to me
Shields up, walls up
Pretend measures of protection
You don’t hurt me, don’t shake me
I say, I say
But my god you don’t know how hard I’ve been fucking trying
Cuz I’ll tear myself apart
Don’t worry though, don’t mind me
You’ve no clue the war I’m always fighting
I try to run and try to hide
Whether in the dark or the light
That girl in the mirror, she follows me
A broken stranger I see,
Break away, break it down
Let it crash and let it fall
All the pretty pieces raining down
Shining, shining
Multiplying
my inadequacies blinding me
Amplifying
Build and break, build and break
I break me down and build it back
This image of me,
But it’s Never enough.
How, tell me how
can I be more but still not enough
I try and I try and I grind so hard
But I never seem to get far
I just wish, I pray
That for one damn day
I could be enough
That you could see me through and through
I tear myself apart for you
About the Creator
Breanne Roth
I’m a registered nurse from Texas. In this life, I’m a mom,a daughter, a friend, a lover, a teacher, a perpetual student...and sometimes, I’m just a shadow. Oh, but sometimes, I’m the light.
Comments
There are no comments for this story
Be the first to respond and start the conversation.