Wallflower

Please tell me

That I haven't messed up

The only thing I've wanted to get right

Please tell me

I bring a smile

and not a grimace

Please, assure me that

My words have meaning

that they resonate

Please tell me that the ache I feel

isn't warranted

That my mind is overworked

building falsehoods

just to torture my peace

At the worst times I feel too alive

Awake

Watching all I want pass me by

It makes me want to hide

it makes me want to confide

in someone I trust

but that is impossible

because trust is ever elusive

I don't even trust myself

Betrayal with every choice I make

Please, I would say

But you don't have to

I know exactly

what my continued presence

does to a person

I wilt the people closest

and you are the one I should guard the best

You don't understand that

You've made a worlds' worth of difference

on a wallflower like me

that I tremble unseen

But you've always looked at me

I won't ask or plead

This decision was always made for me

Watch the path

Look both ways

But don't ever look back

Sincerely,

me.