I hate that it seems like yesterday since you broke my heart and threw me away, yet I still think of you and feel this way.
I sat down and started to write you a letter, but then remembered I shouldn’t, I have to get better.
With hesitation I put down the paper and pen and swore I would never write you again.
I took a deep breath and grabbed my laptop, sat for a moment trying to calm my racing thoughts.
Before I knew it, I had opened word and was staring at an empty doc.
Prepared to write you a letter you might not read or give much thought.
It took some time, but I am glad I remembered, I cannot write you a letter because I have to get better.
I set the laptop down and slid it to my right making sure it is out of sight, I closed my eyes and whispered real light…
Goddess please help me have the strength to say goodbye.
With my left hand I reach over and grab my phone, thinking how free I would feel if I could leave you alone.
Opening my phone, I head straight to Instagram and damn, before I know it, I am on your page again.
I slam down my phone in frustration and sigh.
I put down my head and start to cry.
I must find a way to forget you or pretend you do not exist.
I must find a way to fight these urges I cannot resist.
I cannot go on feeling this way or doing these things forever, I must find a way to be free so I can get better
About the Creator
Violet
I have always loved to write, even though I may not be the best at it. I am 42 years old and am not getting any younger. Just trying to live a dream the best way I can.
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