Untold

Dear You,

Since I could not find the courage to talk to you in person.

Or hit send to all the messages I tried to compose for you.

I will let out all the things I want to tell you.

And everything I tried to hide from you.

Here in my secret space where I can share all my unsend thoughts and feelings.

Who knows if one day you will find this message.

And know all the feelings I tried to hide from you.

It’s been seven years since our relationship last.

A very hurtful ending with lots of beautiful memories.

Hey, I tried to forget you for how many times during these years.

But always falling back everytime you tried to contact me.

All the walls I tried to build were got shattered.

Wanting to accept you back and forgetting what happened in the past.

But everytime I start to want to surrender.

Something will happen that drifted us apart again.

I want to give you another chance, I really do.

That I even tried to initiates to contact you.

But somehow still stops us to reconnect again.

Yes, I still have my own baggage and same as yours to clear.

But I also know you think that I deserve someone better than you.

Who are you to decide for what I feel when all I know is you that I always wanted.

You are the one I want to love and be always with.

Regardless of what other people will say and think about us.

My heart says it is you and only you.

Will I just choose to keep on loving you from afar and secretly?

Will you still come back and when?

Still waiting here,

Me