Uncertainty

It's fleeting

But it comes in moments throughout the day

Sparks of recognition

I forget he exists

Then I remember

And the sadness drowns me again

It consumes my entire being

I grieve him even though he is still alive

Truth be told

Sometimes I liked the chaos

The highs and lows of uncertainty

Where did we stand?

I am over trying to prove my worth

To someone who can't see how amazing I am

I might not find another whose words flowed so easily

But I also won't allow you to hurt me any longer

I hope you are content with your downgrade

Because I am the only me

I will not stoop to the pettiness of your level

Your fight is with yourself

It has nothing to do with me

The difference is I've battled my shadow

And come out the other side.