Was I right?
Or was I wrong?
Was it intuition?
Or was it fear?
A trauma response still so ingrained in my being
A survival instinct
Because for so long I have been surviving
Not living
Not following my heart
Not following what I want
Not being who I want
Who I am
I've been lost on the road
But wrapped safely in bubble of my own creation
Believing that maybe if I held tight
If I stayed on the path
If I was a good girl
No big bad wolves would get me
I would leave them all behind after the passing of the first.
But you popped that bubble
with your honey words
saying all the things that I wanted you to say
Reacting in ways I never thought possible
Placing so many of my dreams at my feet
So did I run scared
From the woodsmen, sent to save the day?
Was I to weak to fight?
Was I wrong?
Or was I right?
Was it intuition screaming that something was off?
That things were too good to be true
That you were a wolf in sheep's clothing
Was the rollercoaster ride
that robbed me of appetite, of sanity, of sleep,
my gut screaming to run like hell!
Cleaning up my bread crumb trail behind me
Hiding away and slamming the door
If I was wrong,
Did I hurt you?
I believe the answer is yes
and this weighs on my heart
more than you will ever know
Do I pop in your mind when you least expect?
Something I said taking hold of your brain
Like you do in mine?
So many questions abound in my head
Questions that will probably never be answered
threatening to drown me in a sea of anxiety and doubt and guilt
From which I am not sure I could resurface
So for now I choose to be right
I choose to believe that it was never real,
though what I felt was.
About the Creator
Tina Rose
Life Long writer, Reader, tea lover, and Self care advocate.
Just trying to bring a little light and joy into this world.
My Instagram: @tina_rose91.
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