Love should be sweet
Love should be kind
Love should be that motivation that keeps you going
Love should be that support that you fall into,
When the world is at your throat
Keeping your breath trapped in your windpipe
While you begin to lose hope
Love should be that fresh air filling your exhausted lungs
Ours was a red light
That stopped me in my tracks
The second our eyes met
The second I saw those lips
The second I heard your laugh
The second you called me honey
The second we breathed the same air,
An air sweeter than the golden luscious liquid you so casually referred to me as
Immediately I halted on my path
My ambitions
My dreams
My desires
My needs
My wants
The path that I had fought so hard to find
The path that brought my light to the world
The path that brought me a sense of power I had never felt before
I stopped walking on
I stood glued to the ground
Weighed down by your sweet words that no one had ever said to me before
Weighed down by my fears that I would mess this up
Weighed down by the future I imagined with you, the second our eyes met
A future so much changed from the one envisioned before
A future that did not entirely fit my path
The light I had seen at the end of my journey
A future that focused around you and your needs
A future in which I lost much of myself because
my love for you was so strong
My desire to care for you and take care of you was so strong
My desire to wake up in your arms
To be there when you got home
To be the one you turned to
To be the one you needed
To be the one you wanted
To be “worthy” of your love
All so strong,
That it squeezed me like vice
Until my lungs and brain begged for oxygen
Panic took hold and my mind lost control
Control it fought to regain,
Yet my heart battled it every inch
Until the red light turned green
Love should be sweet
Love should be kind
Love should be that motivation that keeps you going
Love should be that support that you fall into,
When the world is at your throat
Keeping your breath trapped in your windpipe
While you begin to lose hope
Love should be that fresh air filling your exhausted lungs
But yours took my breath
My motivation
My path from me
And I was not ready
Yours was my red light
An obstacle in path
A lesson I needed to learn
But love none the less
Arrived at the wrong time
On the wrong route
Veering me out of control,
Changing my perspective,
Opening up side streets, shortcuts, other roads
that can get me to that same destination
Rerouting me like a GPS
But too late
So I wait and pray you impede my path again
When the time is right
You make me stop in my tracks
With those eyes
With those lips
With that laugh
With those luscious words dripping from your lips
And this time you are only a pale yellow,
That we can turn to green.
About the Creator
Tina Rose
Life Long writer, Reader, tea lover, and Self care advocate.
Just trying to bring a little light and joy into this world.
My Instagram: @tina_rose91.
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