Turn Into Ashes

I swear I wanted immortality.

I swear I wanted forever.

I swear what I feel is unconditional,

I never cared about the weather.

But it takes a little too much,

To try and keep up,

With all of the love,

I hold on to…

For you.

I want your face to disappear.

I want your number to fade away.

It’s spent too long in my memory,

And I can’t take it another day.

I pray you turn into ashes in my mind.

I’ll sweep ‘em up if I ever have the time.

Or maybe I’ll dump ‘em in the ocean.

Depends on the emotion.

I pray you turn into ashes in my mind.

I swear I never saw a cemetery.

I swear I never saw my love on a headstone.

My intention was to be the one who never left,

Never wanted you to be alone.

But I think I cared too much,

And you never cared enough.

Still foolishly, I gave love.

And held on to it like a crutch.

I want your eyes to disappear.

I want your smile to fade away.

It’s spent too long in my memory.

And I can’t take it another day.

No funeral services needed.

I just want to get it over with.

Cremation, smoke rising.

I’ll mourn you with a fifth.

I’ll wear black because I loved you.

I’ll wear black because I mean it.

I’ll wear black because I’ll miss you.

I’ll wear black because you’re leaving.

And when I wake up, 1st thing in the morning,

If your face isn’t what I see.

I’ll know I found the remedy.

I’ll know I’m finally free.