Turbulent Love

Dear love of my life,

As I sit down to write this letter,

I cannot help but feel a sense of pain,

For the love that we share is tumultuous,

Full of fear, anguish, and disdain.

It seems like every time we get close,

I push you away with all my might,

For I cannot shake this feeling of being unlovable,

Of never getting things quite right.

And though you have shown me love and tenderness,

And have promised to never leave my side,

I still cannot shake this fear of abandonment,

Of being left alone in the dark to hide.

But I know that this is not your fault,

And that I must take responsibility,

For the demons that haunt me deep within,

And the love that I cannot always see.

So here's to the moments we will share,

As we journey on through life,

With a love that may be tumultuous,

But is worth every pain and strife.

For in your arms I find comfort,

And in your eyes I see hope,

And though the journey may be long and hard,

Together we can learn to cope.

So here's to the love that we share, my heart,

Full of anguish, fear, and pain,

For in the end, it's worth it all,

To have you by my side again.

Yours always,

Natasha