TOXIC

The pain and insecurity,

I thought they've gone peacefully,

The hates, unknown, uncertainty,

I assumed they'd never bother me.

But I forgot, ending is always on the motion,

Pain reliever has its expiration,

Now, sorrow starts to invade my emotion,

I guess I overestimated our Chemistry 's potion.

Hope my fear of uncertainty you'll heal,

Now I realized you are just an ordinary pill,

Temporarily Numbing the pain I feel,

Trying to sugar coat what is hard to deal.

With you I don't know where I stand,

You became a drug that I want,

Addicted with your attention,

Now leading to destruction.

Keep on taking and taking,

Letting the toxins coming in,

But I want your beautiful toxicity,

To wander all around my body.

Your presence itself is my greatest pleasure,

But your actions are more than just torture,

Either of them I can endure,

For you are a bad drug pretending to be a cure.

Dozes that can never be measured,

Pain that can never be cured,

Guessed I just need to be immune,

Till this pain and insecurity will fade away soon.