Too Late For Me Now

Too Late For Me Now

I sat there in a thinking mode, bewildered,

nothing exact came to mind, only one word, why?

In fact I felt numb inside. You really hurt me.

I can’t understand love at all, it’s not good.

Love, well in my eyes is all I ever wanted,

it came with dark hurt in your punches.

How can anyone love like that.

I never knew, was it going to be a kiss or fight.

My friends seemed to have hearts and flowers,

me, nope, I had hidden bruises. Cuts across my heart.

My mind was screaming, get out now, please leave.

However I remained, thinking it would stop one day.

It never did stop. I questioned the other women you loved,

probably paid them. People used to tell me all about you.

It broke my mind, my confidence and my heart, why?

I kept it inside, deep inside. Then you left me for my friend.

I got by, found someone new, he was unkind too like you,

but he didn’t go after others. He never hit me or hurt me.

I think he wasn’t you, no he was a narcissist, a horrible man.

So now older I crave that real love I never had, but long for you.

You’re dead now, it’s all too late, it’s all the past, the bad old days.

It’s all in a sentence, too late now, and a pity I never knew love.

The true love never knocked on my door, it broke my heart.

You are dead now, so why dwell on what I never had. Sad, I know.

You are dead now, it’s too late.💔

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