Together
There you with your stilted smile,
I was waiting to hold you close
to put an end your bootcamp order of business.
I see you wave with your beautiful hands.
Can you feel my need to feel your heart
beyond our stone’s throw?
You, with your pressed uniform.
I was waiting to make a mess of you
If not just to erase your hurt.
You are my orchid’s fit
I wanted your face,
to be nothing short of vivid.
There you are. . .hands on my face.
I was dying to share my seasons with you
and wander off into our sacred space.
You finally say my name
I know you want to know me again
I'm up for the challenge if you are.
Do the evening stars light you up
like what they used to?
Can you still see my face
in those still waters?
Do the city lights
still rush into you the same celestial noise?
Do the ocean waves
still crash into your heart the same way?
Because all I see
is the stoned glaze of your tears.
Do our life’s meadows still
chase you into our dream?
‘Till death do us part
with a baby silhouette?
Do you see her with
the same conviction?
Her amber eyes
beg you to latch
onto her through the life’s maze.
Will you still
stroke the whisps of
my hair when it turns gray?
With nothing left to be said
but the solaced smiles
that say it all.
Do you still see that life
as you cry in the night
for the one that left you?
His casket was earth defying.
With gardenias overlaying
the beautifully crescent arc
of his new wooden home.
Your brother of war was not a complex person.
His happiness to him meant
never needing a reason to weep
over living like
you and me.
But your night screams
burst the bubble
of our level headed fantasy.
Did you see that line of fire
when you aimed for it?
Or do I list it on the
charter of things
to chuck away
for our garage sale?
You are not that man
who’s fist aims
for the flesh
that contains it.
Of course I accept your apology.
How else could I
bear to fix on your mindful gaze again?
My only homestead
was needing to hasten my dried up heart
with the nearness of you finally in tow.
But the extinguished light in our eyes
will take time to reach the same flicker
in the same way that our dinner candle
flirts with our lovely morning embrace.
I
want to be THAT woman,
who can enjoin one dream
to another with the flourish
of her eye.
I want to be here with you
to ride the shedding of old skins
and find our way together in flight
to the discovery of our new place.
Your guitar haunts me,
mounted on that wall,
untouched by your
nimble hands.
I could retrieve it,
We could derelict it,
violate it’s duty
even though it waited patiently for you.
We can string our own songs,
of loathing the war,
that cut us in two
from the better nature
of ourselves.
But mostly,
we can gaze at its beauty,
and talk about how it cannot be nearly stunning enough
without it reflecting you.
Who do you sing to at night,
when blood wrings through your hands,
with the ripple
tide of someone else’s wing?
I can only sift through,
nightmare after nightmare.
with your stilted quiet
recount the daily routine
of latrine duty and stale pork chops.
I can only wait,
to see the restlessness in your eyes,
for a heart that is softer
than the ones that
breed you for death.
Our sky looked like our crest tonight
with a stealthy shine
through our golden cherries and wine.
Your voice veers through
my fingers as I linger
over the melody ivories of our concert grand.
I feel your breath through the
syncopation of my pendulum heart
between missing you and
boasting the break of being on my own.
Today your favorite ice cream
ran out
at the corner store,
so I reached over for mine instead.
The life we are beginning
to share
wedges itself into a
separation that leaves me unto myself.
At the harvest, I picked apples with a brighter
shade of red than
the passion of our dust.
My blind devotion to a trickling feeling
that haunts the light of your tortured sky.
As you smile through the “fight”,
do I ask you if you're all right
or do I save it for church?
Just let me lie with you.
I want to live on your
side of our world.
To me you are nothing but gold.
It's a layered remembrance of a cradle stock life,
sans the echo of the timely brigade
designed to shake off the deafening tribunal
that tells us what we should and shouldn’t hold on to.
And as the fading ember of recollection burns out for good
we see, we feel, we know
what’s rightfully ours and what’s wrongfully theirs.
A wind of regret tethered to the ground rallies around the baby dolls
until a heart, a mind or a soul could be seen.
She used to be a star light’s fan
Not ours to see, not ours to care.
But we hold on to her with a somber glare.
Looking to the skyline to tell us how to live right
Too big to know
Just another number headed for the slumber
of ghosts again, too old to grow
Here’s to a new song. . .
A hand on the heart
means no more false starts.
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