Time won't heal this
I never stopped needing you before. Somethings never change
I said I would respect your decisions
and not reach out to you
So I write to you here
to give me something to do
I'm not ok
I'm not alright
Things haven't gotten easier
just because you're out of sight
The days are hard
and the nights are longer still
I reread our messages
to shore up my crumbling will
I know that you love me
and that makes this harder to bear
That's not something you can turn off
You can't just not care
You stand by your promise
and hold on to her
But there's no prize for being a martyr
Life doesn't care if you were
You want to be good
and do the honorable thing
I just wanted you
I wanted everything
All those years that we lost
when we were living part
always knowing that we were missing
the other half of our heart
But fear holds you back
You say your conscience does
I call you a coward
and cry for what once was
I have so many feelings
I can't make sense of any one
So much love, hunger, and heartache
Even after a lifetime I won't be done
About the Creator
Kelly Mendoza
As a newly single mother of 2, I've found myself with extra time on my hands . Whether it's fantasy or paranormal , reading and writing has always been an escape for me.
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