Behind the yellow line
I’m like everyone else
Waiting for my life to begin
Sometimes tapping my foot sometimes
Leaning in to my hip
I’m sure my breath and the wall
Across the tracks can
Have a full on conversation
Without me knowing
About where I’m truly going.
The train arrives.
And I see myself
Arriving too in the window
In every glass window
A version of myself is born...
I always seem to look into peoples eyes at the wrong time
And they always seem so caught off guard
So exposed,
Like I’ve discovered a long-held secret or something
But it is they
Who have now discovered
How I see the world.
And there’s no need for contact really
To feel close
To feel uncomfortable
cornered
gasping
naked.
For some reason dressing in layers feels so safe in this space
I wonder how safe onions feel at their core?
Germs. Are. Everywhere.
And I can’t unsee that
They’re floating around
in the charged liquid that binds us all
They’re like the little specs of spices in soups that you can’t pick out but you don’t really want to swallow
The broth feels dangerous in here...
And what do you do about danger? Clenching never works but for some reason usually happens
I know I’m dead when notice I’ve been holding my breath.
My protection crystals are busy working while I’m away - at home!
So I’m free to be unsafe.
Trade offs...
Crazy how music enters and exits without much fuss
I can only hope to be as good at
Seamless Transitionsssss ssss s sszzzzzz
Zero to 100 is usually my style.
I quite like it.
Nobody knows my style, especially not on trains.
Invisibility is my power.
To try
Not at all
Is the goal
Always.
It works.
Always.
I’ve been nobody from day one and I am nobody still
Also, I’m still safe.
I haven’t died yet, have I?
And I don’t know why
In this constant fight
Between fight or flight
I feel so safe in my thoughts
(Dreamspace doesn’t have germs, usually)
It’s like nothing even happened
And time just jumped over a small inoffensive puddle
I muddle and waddle my way out
The bell always dings
In my head before it rings in real life
And for a second I break free
Into something
Crossing a yellow line
This poem is part of a series of 25 daily word experiments I am committing to for the month of October. The motto: “Sometimes garbage, sometimes sweet, not fun everyday, but everyday anyway!” Intrigued to experience what can be created (and discovered) in the process of developing a consistent writing practice, I will be writing a poem a day until my Vocal+ subscription ends at the end of the month. Let’s gooooo!
About the Creator
SB.
Hi! I’m Siena. I’m a word witch and an actual witch. I like to write when I feel like it 🌓 🌊
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