The Words That Choked My Heart

✍️ Poem: I wanted to scream, But I smiled. They asked how I was, I lied. I wanted to say: "I'm tired of being strong." That pretending hurts And nights are too long. I wanted to admit — That I miss who I used to be, Before I became A ghost in front of me. I wished I could say: "I'm not okay." That hope doesn’t always Survive the day. I wanted to confess That I still think of them at 3 AM, That forgiveness is hard And love feels condemned. But I held it in — Like I always do. Because sometimes, Silence is safer than truth. Because when I speak, They say: "You're too much." And when I’m quiet, They call it a crutch. So I write my truth In unsent letters. I bleed it in poetry Where nobody judges. Because some things — The real things — Can’t be said out loud. Only felt. ---