The Weight of Judgment

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My heart hangs heavy in my chest
As I face their eyes of discontent
For errors made in younger days
When wisdom had not made its way

Though years have passed since those dark times
And I've worked hard to make amends
Their gazes still hold doubt and pain
As if no progress has been gained

I know I caused hurt, broke their trust
With foolish deeds and wanderlust
But I hoped with time and change shown
Their faith in me could be regrown

It pains me so to see the cost
Of reckless choices made and lost
I'd give all I have to erase
The past's shadow on each face

But judgment casts a weighty net
On soul and spirit, cold and wet
Though I've shed old skin, transformed within
The past, to them, is not yet dim

With patience, love, and gentle care
Perhaps one day that weight I'll bear
No more, those shadows and dark clouds
Of disapproving eyes and doubts

I'll show them all the person I've become
No longer haunted by what I've done
And judgement will release its grip
As forgiveness lets their love resurface

For now I'll bear this test of time
Make amends for each past crime
And hope someday they'll clearly see
The change that's happened deep in meJudgment