Crying is lately what I’ve become very well aquatinted with…
The slow days that just drag on….
The weekend came excited to sleep in but what do you know I wake up at 6:30 from a nightmare….
I wish he cared
Instead I’m up this early having a nightmare about him all alone and scared…
I force myself back to sleep when I’m yet again woken up to another nightmare but behold this one is deep….
I sit on his friends bed telling him what I can do to get back together with him. His friends helps me but then the one and only question comes up….. is he getting back together with her I ask??? His friend sitting there silent looks the other way…
Oh my fuckin god just say it….
Out of breathe I wake up to my clock saying 8:00 am oh my god can’t I have just peace on my one and only day off???
Tears stream down my face I swear nothing but pain is what I feel deeper then anything……
Asleep I have fallen only to dream happily when what the fuck I’m awoken by yet another fuckin nightmare…… sitting on his friends bed we talk. I got a text with a picture sent to me. My best friend and his ex…. Oh my god please get me out of this ….. I can no longer dream anymore happily,nor be peaceful….. I reach for the tissue box yet to my avail I’ve used them all up….
Okay I’m done with sleeping I turn over and lay in the corner still as anything…. What do I have?
Because quite frankly I feel like I don’t have anything at all … the world is falling through my fingers like quick sand on a beach….
If only I could think of staying at a nice beach…. Instead I’m stuck frozen in this damn bed I can’t sleep nor find anything relaxing….
Your a pathological liar,you hurt me,your a disgusting child….
The memories play in my head each from a different person… FUCK ME I start tearing but yet feel worthless to cry I feel as if I’m not here looking at the picture that hangs on top of my bookshelf… (a family photo) I think what if I just disappear? Ya they would care but only for a short while…
They all tell me to go on medicine… fuck that shit they leave me alone let alone I want to cry yet gain I don’t know what else is real…..
About the Creator
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Love to write wrote poetry when I’m in my deepest darkest moments…. ✍️
I want to help the world feel like they’re not alone ❤️
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