The voices.
The voices they are everywhere,
loud, volatile they don’t seem to care.
care that they cause distress and harm,
care that they make it impossible to stay calm.
calm is a feeling I truly do miss,
miss it so much the happiness and bliss.
that feeling that I am safe on my own
no risk of self-harm through flesh and bone,
I am careful to stay that way I can’t afford to slip
if I did… I’ve done it before… I the ‘ve felt blood drip.
To slip would mean back into old habits that just do me harm,
I’m trying, trying trying so hard just to regain the calm.
Calm I know is a feeling that won’t wash over me soon,
my head, my body disjointed marching to their own tune.
such tunes I know do me no good,
focussing, trying to get rid of them like I know that I should.
I struggled each moment because of the voices
so much so that they derail me choices
choices are important to life, I know that they are,
someday my brain feels as If it’s covered in tar.
Brain so heavy, feeling like im stuck in the rain,
water soaking me, washing me with pain
walking trudging through life going on and on
some days I wish I was gone.
onwards and upwards others do chant
failing to realise that I simply cant.
Cant go on because I’m shrouded by fear
scared that when I shout there will be no-one to hear
About the Creator
Just-Jay.
My name is Jay.
Transgender neurodiverse human Creative weirdo.
- Pronouns: He/Him.- Pagan- Vegie- Poly & Pan - obsessed with foxes.- Amature photographer and writer- Depression and Anxiety & Fibro warrior.
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