The Shadow of the End

I love you so much I have burned holes in my soul.

It was toxic magic to me, burning through my atoms,

Poking first one hole and then another before, at last,

I was illuminated like an arrow-downed monster

Bent like a bow in the air with porcupine quills of fire.

I love you so much I’ve combusted like a star.

.

Except I only love you after the red sunset bleeds out and night drops.

I only love you in the safety of my head when the fog has rolled in

And covered my face, my breath, my desires with its white blanket.

.

I am choking, lungs filling like buckets with water

Because I cannot give up the chase of loving you,

Not even if I am trembling from the cold and blue.

I’ve always been blue around the edges with you,

Too afraid of what might happen to let go of my breath

But look, look at how right I turned out to be.

.

There is a chanting in my head, windchimes whistling in my throat.

I’ve abandoned the principle of the matter and swallowed the farce

But I can’t figure out how to get back to something I cannot remember.

_____________________________________________

This is a piece in a series I'm putting together. The others are below. It's really starting to get long! (Plus there's thirty other poems already put together).

Smoke in His Teeth

Bleeding Petals

The Tether

Strings of Night

Obsidian Water

The Cottage Window

Nighttime Pastime

I Long To Be Chained