The Price of Ego and Pride

Ego such a small word for such a large part of our lives

An even larger problem to deal with

My ego was that of a lion's pride

It went unchallenged for many years

My truth is that my ego was constantly being bruised by the smallest actions

It was so large and out of control

The reaction never fit the action

My response fit how my ego felt bruised and hurt

If someone hurt me

I made it my duty to make them hurt too

As much pain as possible

That was my motto

Create chaos

Make them as miserable as you feel

As long as my ego got its fill nothing else mattered

But I hated myself

I hated my overinflated ego

Covering up for the scared, and lost little boy inside

That boy who didn’t know who he was

Without the pain

Because I bonded with my trauma

I had a crab mentality

Dragging down anyone who dare escape

Everyone would suffer like me

We would all boil in the pot together

How foolish I was

When I stopped letting my ego run free

I became free

Free to roam the ocean as a crab

Where I belonged

Not dying in some pot

Surrounded by the same mentality

I once had