The Nowhere Train
A poem about a man who finds himself on a train going nowhere in particular. On this train he finds the truth of his life from an unlikely source.
Looking through the window of the train
Objects passing by like a blur
I wondered how I had made it here
With no memory of boarding
I fancied I was going home, it had been far too long
Though there was nothing to visit at home
My family had passed some time ago
Maybe I should have brought flowers, stupid me
Passengers boarded stop after stop
But I never saw anyone actually leave
It was strange, though I tried not to give it much thought
Until the conductor passed by
Checking everyone’s tickets
In that moment I began to panic
As I checked my pockets to no avail
My heart began to race faster
As he approached my seat
I reached into my pockets one last time
And voila a ticket had appeared
Though no destination was written upon it
Only my departure time
This train was beginning to feel weirder and weirder
He clicked my ticket and paused
As if waiting to answer a question
I must have looked like a scared little rabbit to him
And I peered up with confused eyes to ask
“Where is this train going exactly”
To which he responded
“That depends where you are trying to go”
But I had no idea where I wanted to go
Or why I was there in the first place
The last thing I remember was falling asleep
A pill bottle empty in my hand
And a hand gun on my nightstand
What exactly was I doing last night
By and by people began to exit the train one stop after another
Yet I remained
Hours had passed and I was no closer to answering his question
Eventually we had reached the last stop
And he approached me once more
Asking if I would be leaving here or staying
I asked him where we were
To which he replied “the end”
This is where souls are ferried to the other side
And in that moment, I think I knew what I did the night before
I mustered up enough courage to ask
“Am I dead? Only to hear “not yet”
The conductor stared at me for a moment
And then sat down next to me
To say this, “It's your choice whether or not you exit this train
But if choose to do so you will pass on to the next life”.
Even here I still had a choice at the end
Funny because it never felt that way in life
“What if I don’t want to leave” I asked
“Then open your eyes and wake up”, he said
Those words echoed in my mind wake up, wake up
It felt like someone was holding my hand
And asking God for me to please wake up
I couldn’t recognize the voice; it was faint but there
Couldn’t be someone I knew I chuckled
No one cared for me even at the end of my life
Yet I couldn’t shake the feeling I was wrong
Eventually the conductor stood up and began heading out
Before he could leave, I asked him one last question
“Why am I still here and not dead?”
He turned around and said with a little chuckle of his own
“Maybe, just maybe you didn’t want to die
Otherwise, you would have left at one of these stops along the way
Yet here you sit, unable to make the choice to leave”.
There's a part of you still holding on
Even if you disagree with the choice
Hes giving you a chance to choose again
A second chance if you will
And I hope you listen to your heart a little more closely this time around
Then the conductor was gone
Fading to mist
I shut my eyes real hard and tried to wake up
Hoping I actually would
Every time I closed my eyes, I heard that same voice
And felt the warmth of their hand
I gave it one last try and woke up gasping for air
Feeling like I was breathing again for the first time in my life
My eyes slowly opened to see a woman sitting next to me
Holding my hand while she slept
I barely recognized her; it was my next-door neighbor
Someone I had seen every day and spoken to in passing occasionally
In that moment I was glad to be alive
I left her sleep as I smiled inside
Knowing I had made the better choice this time.
About the Creator
Matthew Mccahey
I want to use stories and life experiences to allow others to be open about their own.
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Comments (2)
Very well done. I have friends who take the train a lot. I will share this peom with them.
This was fantastic! Loved the concept of life and death here