A Different Life
Have you ever wanted a different life? Were there chances along the way you never took? This is a poem about mine.
Oh, how I wished for a life outside of my own
So many lives I could have lived
Hoped I would live
But never came to pass
I dreamed of a life in England
A life with the child I almost had
A child that never breathed air
I wonder how things would have turned out
I was ready to be a father or so I told myself
I finally had the opportunity
To be a better father than my own
But God knew I wasn’t ready for that responsibility
And the child passed in the womb
I wanted that life
To run away from my own and disappear
The same life I still want
To leave this place and never return
Because there's nothing here worthwhile
Even my family doesn’t anchor me here
The life I want is a life free of them and everyone around me
To cut all ties, and never look back
That’s the path that calls to me every morning, every night
Every time my life feels out of sight
I wish I may I wish I might
This life just doesn’t feel right
I don’t want to be here building bonds I know I won't keep
I just want to be free, to be me
But I am suffocated in this place, there's a heavy burden
Every corner has a memory, every face brings pain
I want to exist in a world I've never known before
To make new memories with joy and gratitude
Not waiting for my life to end in misery
In the same place that made me feel small
Made me as hollow as their voices
Begging me to please stay
I can't spread my wings where I'm constricted
The air here is stagnant and polluted
Corrupted by the people, the places, and the things
I find no hope left in this city, or its people
I've come to hate this place I once called home
But this place is no home of mine anymore
Nothing but a dark stain on my path
Some days I wish it would burn to the ground
Along with its ugly soulless people
About the Creator
Matthew Mccahey
I want to use stories and life experiences to allow others to be open about their own.
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