The miracle of light

A red hot flame is what Iv’e become aquatinted with. Oh So beautiful but touch it you’ll be in pain. I sit here in my thoughts watching the candles flicker away all I wish is that this pain can go away…. The lights are warm and brings me peace only to find out that they last not so long and so I sit here thinking do I even belong here? Thoughts scramble in my head I think to myself is this my sign to go to bed? But oh so peaceful and warm let me sit here like I want to belong. Like floating jellyfish my thoughts come to haunt me ugh why now? why can’t they just let me be? With each sting at a time I think did I really mean to do this? How can I still live? Am I going to cry till tomorrow? These thoughts are like thunder in my head ahhh I can’t deal with this right now my head is exploding I’m going to bed!