I used to read about the look.
Eyes glimmering, love overflowing,
adoration at its peak…
but it was fiction. Words.
Such intensity did not exist
in this reality that was bitter,
cold and disconnected. Passion
muddled by lies, betrayal, secrets.
Little did I know, my belief
would be proven wrong
by none other than myself.
With the help of you that is.
♥
Late night talks, dumb texts,
goofy grins, little giggles.
Things so easy to ignore
with a screen as a buffer,
muffling a typhoon to simply
an inconvenient rain in my heart.
But then we met… a whim
on my part to say the least.
Experiencing you first hand
was different than moments
immortalized in the digital world.
♥
To have you at arms lengths,
Hearing your voice within
the same background noise,
my eyes trailing after your
every movement as if
I would never see you again.
Drinking in every moment,
Every stupid joke, warm smile,
and excited rambling
all of it with my very own
silly upward turn of my lips.
♥
Realization of my actions came later
for I know not of my own expressions.
Brought to attention by a friend
who knew that this story of ours
wasn’t a happy ending but a tragedy
of my own creation. Hesitation.
Not wanting to shatter the tomorrow
I’ve been dreaming of, waiting for us
at the startline I fabricated.
♥
The look also brought reality.
Something unavoidable settling in
that I don’t want to admit.
My feelings were getting stronger,
harder to hide and too prevalent
to ignore any longer.
★
While you were my moon, I
was merely a star lost
in your night sky.
About the Creator
A. Nguyen
A writer at heart who wants to share my works. I want to evoke emotion in people when they read my writing but I won't ever know if I can, if I don't put anything out into the world so this is my first step :)
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