ripped my life in two
always waiting for the clues
I can feel my skin stretch
picking scabs again
indebted to unpaid dues
drawing inspiration from every dark corner in my head
black coffee, dark whiskey, wine flavored cigarettes
replaced my Marlboro no.27's
raw thoughts no chase
incomplete leather and linen bound journals
never written through to the last page
I don't know why i have that habit
I will never age
I was never a good daughter
convinced I needed an exorcist
because I've seen the world for what it is
playing catch up with myself has bled into adulthood
trauma I've paid strangers to sift through
just to feel understood
it's embarrassing, they shouldn't know me better than anyone
ever could
what can i do to keep someone enthralled
I am racing against the march of time
never ending mentally and emotionally abusive fights
I choose it all
why would I know what healthy love looks like
if I was never raised in it
i guess that's because lovers and family, they also, saw the world for what it is
we are all picking scabs, picking fights
it used to be alright
I used to convince myself I am fine
I think I talked to God last night
it said "Angel everything is going to be alright, hold on for me"
and i cried myself to sleep
remembering everything
praying for anything
-g.m.t.
About the Creator
g.m.t
bare bones,
here are rests the things ive wrote,
to purge, to mend whats broke.
read, or dont. <3
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