The "In" Crowd
Incognito at the Table
Just fit in.
Ignore the differences.
Lock away my true self.
Act like someone else.
Just fit in.
*****
Hanging out with the "in" crowd.
Laughing at jokes that cause disgust.
Smiling at the unforgivable.
Feeling gross fifteen minutes in.
Lonely and unseen.
*****
Longing for those not here.
Those who would never fit with this crowd.
Those who would choose a different... everything.
What are they doing tonight?
Why am I even here?
*****
Wanted a night out
To stop feeling restless and alone.
Accepted the call.
Prioritized looking great.
The only “great” for me tonight.
*****
This could be the last event.
I could say no next time.
I could decide to find my tribe
Instead of just being agreeable
And not being me.
*****
Walking around in a stranger’s skin,
Using a stranger’s voice,
A stranger’s laughter,
A stranger’s look.
Adrift in the muck of “fitting in”
*****
What a lie.
To be authentically me would rush me home.
My true community would be my family.
Happiness, freedom, security.
I need to get home to authenticity.
About the Creator
Cathy Money
I've done some things. Now I'm working on my writing, trying to get better at it. But mostly having fun creating stories.
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