The Girl in the Corner
She's much stronger than you know.
My dearest love, listen
And try to understand.
I moved away from there
To start a new life here
With you.
A fresh start, a clean slate
A chance to begin again.
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And I purposely disconnected
From my old life.
Broke ties, drew boundaries. Stepped away.
It was the only way I could find peace.
Yet somehow I’m still tethered -
Still bound by memories, by expectations,
By family.
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And of course I love them…but it is indelibly mixed
With anger and sorrow.
A bitter drink for sure.
And the worst part– I’ll admit it – the disappointment.
Their disappointment that I wasn’t what they expected.
My disappointment that anything was expected at all.
And the shame and hurt when I realized
That I wasn’t enough
Just as myself.
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I’ve learned to live with it.
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But no, I don’t want to go back.
I REALLY don’t want to go back.
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You are my sanctuary.
You surround me with gentleness and peace and love.
You shelter me. You protect me.
With you I don’t have to think about it, remember it,
Or feel the ache
Of not being enough.
Or maybe -
I was too much.
About the Creator
Jill Harper-Judd
I've been writing poetry and short stories since childhood....but my life has often been chaotic so (mental) space to write can be hard to find. I am a lover of words and the worlds we can create with them. I seek beauty in all things.
Comments (2)
Greatly enjoyed that! Wow, wonderful.
Awww So happy you found someone who gets you, just as you are!! Great job on the pine and conveying the hurt and then the acceptance. ❣️