The Drive Back
(the best ways to gain insight are. . .)
The Drive Back
“I used to say to my classes that the ways to get insight are: to study infants; to study animals; to study primitive people; to be psychoanalyzed; to have a religious conversion and get over it; to have a psychotic episode and get over it; or to have a love affair with an old Russian.” -Margaret Mead
5 am on a two-way State Road
the sun not yet casting light on
what’s meant to be monochrome
black-and-Cremnitz white
cows lay against pastoral lands
of phthalo green
and shaded by Live Oaks
in a limiting state of mind
alive
protected
vibrant accessories
to a morning not yet come
grayscale
gray matter
the usual walk of shame is a drive
today
and I am cruisin’ it
that fallen trash bin
and are those tracks off-road mine from last night?
11 pm seems parallel to my present
it was spent blaring erotica audiobooks
getting away from myself
averse to my surroundings
then fucking you
and you tasted
mm
so bittersweet
‘a glass of wine to relax postnatal a few years ago
is different than drowning out your traumas with White Russians
now,’ you say
and I listen,
because what you say matters,
and has value,
and I’m struggling with my own
breakthroughs
against
breaking dawn--
although I think this is the best way to gain insight
and I think Margaret Mead would agree.
About the Creator
Kayla Frances Murray
🙞 Southeastern US-based writer/poetess 🙜
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