The Complexities of Life
Challenges of the Mind
The complexities of life
Never used to be so intense
I think of a movie, many movies
The instant attraction ‘tween two young beings
As humans we age, we change
Into something more complex
It doesn’t make sense to me
Why must there be rules that make love change?
The politics of being interested in another
That is a concept I fear, I fail
I will never understand how to play
I try, but I end up in the cold, outside alone
You see, I try to be me
I think over and over
What parts are me and truly me
And I have come to the following revelations
I answer your call only after one ring
Not because I’m waiting by the phone for you to call
Or because I’m desperate and lonely
It’s because I want to hear your voice again
I have no delay in messaging you back
And again, it’s not because I sit waiting
I have so much to say and so little time it seems
My excitement makes me write and write
I send cheesy pictures or sayings
I genuinely want to brighten your day
I want you to laugh and smile
For no selfish gain, just because
Then I told you to be safe…
And then I saw it.
I have already positioned myself outside
Just because I’m a person who cares
I lock myself out of your vision
You see me only as a friend
As I constantly struggle to change it
As well as try to brighten your days
I don’t understand the politics
Constantly asking myself when to reply
How or what to reply, and so on
I fear I’m too old for this game
I don’t want you to be interested in a fake
In a fake version of me
I try and let myself vulnerable
All I can do is wait
I will continue to answer your calls
On the first ring, and reply promptly
And laugh and smile with you
While you unknowingly brighten my days
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