She says she wants to keep me
a secret.
Queer love like some moonflower
blooming only in darkness.
And yes, that nectar is sweet
and it stirs awake butterflies in me.
But with nowhere to go,
those butterflies in my stomach
crawl up my throat
and cease—
crumpled bodies in my closed mouth,
yellow wings between my teeth.
Sunlight is not the color you think.
She writes love letters on my body,
a language written in invisible ink.
She says to me, “You are the poem the sky writes
at sunset and sunrise.”
Orange, yellow, pink, a splattered nectarine.
Bursting with color, and the only time I can see her:
between sunset and sunrise.
Imminently dissolving.
Disappearing, I am bright but fleeting.
Look how easily I become nothing.
Like those colors in the sky
that evaporate quick as her hand in mine.
I want to say to her,
I am not just the sunset, the sunrise.
You forget, the sun appears to be coming and going
but you are the one who is doing the rotating.
The sun is always here. I am always here.
Sunlight is every color.
Rainbows are just the constant sunlight
seen spread out, a peacock display
of the pride that was hidden, refracted through the rain.
I want to say,
The color of our love is sunlight through mist.
Rainbows don’t exist in the dark,
and I want to exist.
About the Creator
Chelsey Burden
Freelance writer, proofreader, and library specialist with an affinity for tortoises.
Comments (1)
'You forget, the sun appears to be coming and going but you are the one who is doing the rotating.' I love this line and the whole poem. A perfect unison with nature. A palpable mark on the skin bathed in the sun. A yearning to be visible in the full light of day.