The Battle Within

My dearest love,

I write to you from the edge of eternity

This battle feels endless as it rages on,

I fear I will not make it until dawn.

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I left your side to fulfill my duty,

Turned my weapons within,

Faced the darkness inside,

Letting go of the urge to hide.

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Stardust and galaxies separate us now,

I go to a place no one else can follow,

Deeper and deeper into my soul I dive,

Facing the abyss so that we may thrive.

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I grip my weapon tight, explosions light the sky,

Bullets and shells, crafted from trauma and pain,

Familiar memories, sent in painful volleys

A stark reminder of all my past follies.

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For too long, I have let you suffer,

Healing my self-inflicted wounds,

The enemy in my sights wears my face,

I will not let it take another shred of your grace.

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I will rise above the bloodstained ground,

Passing the corpses of who I was before,

Burying them deep, but carrying their scars,

The future is not theirs, it is ours.

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To battle I go as the sun breaks anew,

One last fight for the sake of it all,

No more attrition, this ends today,

I will no longer simply hold it at bay.

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Remember me when I’m gone,

I’ve loved you from the beginning

If I do not survive this fight,

Know that I fought with all my might.

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This is not goodbye, we will meet again,

I send this letter with a steady hand,

If this is my end, I do not fear it,

With all my love, your kindred spirit.