The aftermath

how it ends:

where he disappears to, is unknown

and i just hate being alone

he does not realise the effect

because he finds pleasure in the neglect

i wait hours for a reply, though i can see he is online

he puts everyone else’s needs in front of mine

we are not forced to stay together

but i cannot imagine finding someone better

he has slowly stopped coming around

already a new bed he has found

again and again he puts me last

he still keeps in touch with his “past”

my feelings for him are too strong

keeping my distance feels so wrong

out of sight, out of mind

again he has left me behind

i begged him to stay

but that just pushed him further away

here i lay, feeling empty

after giving him plenty

so here i am with the same outcome

feeling sad and numb

i set myself up for disaster

heartbreak? i am the master

waving bye to the ship which sailed

another relation i have failed