That Awkward Moment

That awkward moment

when a group of people

approach you

excited that you have arrived

and you have no idea

who any of them are

:

I sat in the shade

with a saxophone player

from the south

I told him

"I like to blend in."

:

He looked at me confused

and asked me why

Then I told him about

that awkward moment

30 minutes before our sit down

:

"It helps me feel safe to blend in."

"I don't like being recognized by those I don't recognize.'

:

He agreed wholeheartedly

"I stick out."

"I'm tall, and my name is Tall Sam."

"I meet so many people who recognize me,

and I don't even know who they are."

:

We agreed that's why

we are reluctant to front a band

:

I love to make music

but privacy and peace is worth gold

:

"As much as I try to blend in

for some reason I stand out."

"Even in my short stature

even with my basic bitch name."

:

That awkward moment

when your intention to blend in

causes you to stand out

:

That laughable moment

when the front woman of a band

imitates your dance moves

when she comes off stage

:

Everyone laughing at you

but you laugh with yourself

knowing it's the imprisoned

impersonating the free

:

That awkward moment

when you tell that front woman

after her performance

"You were amazing."

and she ignores your existence

:

That moment you realize

that same woman despises your existence

But more so the imprisoned front woman

despises watching your soul dance freely

behind her bars

:

That awkward moment

that you laugh about in the moment

because imitation is the biggest form of flattery

and hate is the breadth of your biggest fan