Suicide I Choose Me!!
Suicide I Choose Me
Emeriniciane B. Shaw
Suicide I Choose Me
To lose a baby when I was only a baby myself. nobody knows the pain I feel. trying to figure out why was this the hand I was dealt. dying inside don’t really want no help. couldn’t save my daughter so fuck trying to save myself. They say never to question God but all I wanna know is why. Why me? Why my baby? Can’t be happy because apart of me was taken. Trying to stay strong but I really can’t fake it. I’m hurting there is no other words to say it. I’ve become mute to the world because I lost my first baby girl. 7 years old didn’t get a chance to live her life. Fuck this shit why should I. Thinking about Suicide. Why the fuck should I get a chance to be alive. And my baby girl had to die. You know I can’t even lie as bad as I’m hurting and as much as the pain in my heart keeps stroking. The look in my other kids eyes is the reason I chose to stay alive. Can’t be selfish and cause them more grieve. “Naw” that shit ain’t me “Yeah” I’m hurting but I want them to be happy. So as their mother I’m going to do whatever it takes to keep the smiles on their face. Yo suicide I chose life although I’m dying inside. my 3 other seeds needs me and they are the reason I choose Me.
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