At this hour, I stir.
I only want you when I can’t have you.
Every moon, I lay beneath it, awake in my sheets
“What is she thinking about?”
It is at this hour that I think entirely about you.
Stirring.
We can hold hands, I guess
But only for 37 seconds
I can still smell you on my pillow case
I only want you when I can’t have you
Lying tangled up, stroking skin with fingertips
My restless mind wants to leave, but only after you beg me to stay
At this hour, I see the night in you
The dark, the breeze, the cicadas sing
You were everything
But that’s not who I needed you to be
Two sewn as one
Taking the seam ripper to us time and time again
I only want you when I can’t have you
Your contradictory
Your uncertainty
Wasn’t I supposed to be the one leading you on?
At this hour I can’t possibly articulate how you felt
Maybe like the constant urge to flip over when trying to fall asleep
Nothing can be too comfortable for too long,
At this hour
I only want you when I can’t have you
The night has her hold on me
Remember when we used to drink whiskey?
But only at this hour.
My swallows are sandpaper but the glass on the nightstand is empty.
I only want you when I can’t have you.
It is at this hour that I want you to think of me, the way I linger in your sheets
I’m a tease
A bore
A decision that never gets made
At this hour, I hope you stir.
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