I know what you're trying to do, how you're trying to die
Let's not try to lie to ourselves by pretending that we don't know why.
You say you're an angel who just wants to fly back home
I try to help you get through this, but you just groan
Then you go and complain about being all alone
Well what the fuck do you want me to do?
I can't leave you on your own, I can't condone letting you go
But it feels like nothing I can do will show you that although life may be bad now,
I KNOW that it will get better.
Normally I'm not a big bettor, but I'd put everything I own on the line as a sign of how sure I am that if you endure the shit now, someday you will secure a happy life
Just please put down the knife
stay alive
Together we can arrive at tomorrow, just please don't cause me the sorrow of saying goodbye
I can't let you go like that
In case you haven't noticed yet, this doesn't have to be the end, so cut the shit
I know that it's hard just to quit,
and even harder not to commit
But even amid the bullshit you gotta keep your wits about you and never allow doubts to cloud your mind
they'll make you blind and grind all other thoughts into nothing
You probably think I'm bluffing but if you ever need some loving arms to fall into
Or just something warm to call to and depend on after a bad day
I will be here and I will defend you faster than you can say "hey, please send me some laughter"
I intend to do whatever I can to be a good friend and help you transcend this until the very end
If I got time, I'm willing to spend it
And if I do a crime, and end up suspended,
Then I'll just say "splendid!" and you'll be the first priority of mine that gets attended to,
because I will tend to you until you're content to do the things that I help you through alone
And I know it's scary to step into the unknown like that
But if anyone tries to hurt you, they'll have to face my wrath
I'll be here to help you along the path if you need me
But now I'm just pleading like please
Seize this day, no matter what they say, you're gonna be okay, just please, stay alive with me today
Because eventually,
Everything's gonna be okay
Maybe not today, but things won't stay this bad forever
But you need to never ever surrender, whatever you're facing,
wether it's an aggressor at school or oppressor being cruel or a bad professor you've got for another semester,
together we can wether this storm, and transform into something stronger and better than before!
you're stronger at the core than them, so I implore you,
when you want to walk out that door and give up on this war, please, don't let them win!
Don't let them know that they're under your skin!
Next time you see em, just flash them a grin and know that you're gonna win this, and you're gonna be fine.
It's gonna take time, and sometimes you're gonna want to resign,
It might even feel like you need a divine intervention to give you some corrections,
but I can tell you now that you're nothing short of perfection!
You're going in the right direction, and although you've faced plenty of deception, you are capable of cutting through the hypocrites until you meet the real people, who treat you as an equal and are never deceitful
They're out there somewhere, just find them and you'll finally feel peaceful and maybe even cheerful, and you won't be constantly fearful!
Just please, don't put that bullet in your skull
I know the guns loaded,
the magazines full,
your note's written and folded,
you're ready to pull the trigger and end it all, but even though I'm stalling right now for time,
it's only because I KNOW that everything's gonna be fine
All you need to do is stay alive with me
I know that's easier said that done, because just simply to survive is a challenge sometimes,
and it's an accomplishment to even arrive at tomorrow every day,
just to have things stay the same, even though I PROMISED that the weight would be lifted off your shoulders and that things would be great,
but please, wait and give it a chance to change
You won't be alone, I'll be here as much as you need me, and together we can make plans to make things better
Yeah, we'll make plans, because they won't just get better on their own,
but together we can reclaim your throne on top of your mind,
even though it seems like it's a maze that was designed specifically for you to fail
Together, we can scale this mountain inside of your head,
together we will prevail!
Just please,
stay alive with me tonight.
About the Creator
Alex B
Alex is a trans woman who loves writing poetry, and writing in general
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