You plunged your dirty hands
Inside my soul
Not stopping until you had tainted every core of my body;
My spirit
Yet you called it love, you were doing me a favour,
By purging me clean
Of all those previous demons.
Now you are the only thing to run through my bloodstream
Slowly poisoning me from the inside.
My blood now runs black
It’s so cold inside of me now,
You’re not satisfied until I scream your name
Into the night,
Where no one can hear my internal, pitiful calls for help
Instead they become lodged in my throat.
I wonder if you want to hear them
Will they sound beautiful to you reverberated into the night’s sky.
My weak pleas of stop, keeps falling short
In the end you have to choke them out of me
They fall at our feet
Heavy and awkward.
You just laugh
Like it’s the funniest thing in the world
When you turn to smile back at me,
I realise that your teeth are daggers
Your hands blades, that cut deep.
You will fold me up for the night
Ready to use me again in the morning
Apologising for your behaviour
Anyhow,
It’s too late
I am not quite me anymore
And even if you don’t want to admit it,
You’re not quite you anymore.
You left bruises in the shape of handprints
With jagged scars that run as deep as the ocean,
You have become my living nightmare,
My daily battle, to forget what you did that night
I carry you everywhere with me
I see your cruel face in the mirror.
You have possessed my body
Turning it into a bloody wound
That weeps at the slightest touch
Your violence has carved a home inside my ribcage
And as the years past, I realised I’ve lost myself to the liquid contents
Of glass bottles with pretty labels.
They invite me in with large, welcoming arms
Promising me escape from this recurring nightmare
I welcome the relief
Like the sigh of spring on the pastel horizon
But I promise you this
I have vowed it to myself under the moonlight.
You will not be carved into my body forever
For each year, I painfully shed my skin
And you with it,
Your marks are beginning to fade
One day,
I will have the strength to put you down
And walk away
Just watch me, spread these broken wings
And catch flight,
Straight to the open sky.
About the Creator
Annie Lane
Just here to entertain..
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