It hurts me the way you left
but I would be selfish to have made you stay
in a place that you had found no comfort
hopefully you found it at heaven's gates
I just wish that I had my friend again
Because buddy everything fell apart
I know that I am not a Saint with no sin
I played my own part in ruining all our lives
I blame myself for everything that happened
From crystal leaving abandoning what we had
it almost killed me knowing you were the best friend I ever had
You always had my back through thick and through thin
even when you probably shouldn't have
if you didn't maybe you would have lived
Gotten away from me and all the cruel individuals
Away from that lying soul sucker you brought along
but I have no right to hate I watched it all myself
I'm sure that there is place reserved for me in hell
For allowing what I allowed without skipping a thought
And next thing I knew I knew nothing at all
'cause then came the news of your untimely end
I wish I had been there to smack in you some sense
You chose a permanent solution to a temporary problem
I wish that you would have chosen different
'cause I could use your help now
But I don't deserve such compassion
I don't deserve such a friend
And I might not ever have another
knowing what I did
Or did not I can't decide which is worse
Having the power to change things for the better
But not having the courage to do so
Being influenced by those you knew were wrong
Watching it all burn when you could have cured them all
There is a sickness and me that started from that very day
And it is ever there present eating me away
A darkness that I cannot fathom
Because I cost the life of my best friend
over a little bit of fancy and a bit of whim
I will never forgive myself for that I hope you know that
And I think about you every day
And I always will 'cause you are my dog
And sometimes I feel you watching over me
Weather in humor at my depravity
Or in hope that I'll come out of this calamity
I don't know but I can only guess
We were friends for a long time
I'm sorry I didn't pass that test
I've tried harder and I've done my very best
To improve myself and make sure it never happened again
But then I find myself doing it to others myself
The way that Charlie did to you
And I feel that darkness growing stronger
It is then that I truly feel the Blues
Because what is wrong with me I've never been like this
It's as if something has taken hold of me
And turn me into something I've never been
A demon a monster something in the dark
Forever looking for a victim 2 steal away its heart
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