Sometimes I Forget

I wrote this several months ago after the passing of my husband. It sat in my draft for some time on Medium where I originally posted it. I was not sure if I would ever publish it anywhere. It is so hard to face the reality of my heartbeat not coming back this way. Yet I still trust God’s plan for our faamily.

Sometimes I forget.

Sometimes I still call your name.

Sometimes I hear your voice.

sometimes I can still hear your laughter the same.

sometimes I wake up in the morning to check on you.

Sometimes I go to our favorite spot and think of you.

Sometimes I still hear you fussing at the evening news.

Sometimes I hear you calling our boys on Wednesday to give them their dues.

Sometimes our day to day still routines seem to be.

Sometimes I just forget that you are not here with me.

Sometimes I get a little annoyed.

You are not here to talk about my day.

You are not here to give advice in your special way.

You are not here to continue teach to our boys about life in general.

You are just not here with me my dear.

Yet sometimes I still forget.

I almost bought you something that you really like yesterday.

I almost ordered you food the other night.

I washed some more of your clothes just tonight.

Even our eldest almost bought you lunch alright.

I guess it just haven’t set in yet because I just forgot once again.

Maybe like my friends say I just haven’t let you go.

You are such a part of my heart we two became one flesh.

Farwell my love you are gone but never forgotten.

Thank you for reading.