SO GOOD BYE AND GOOD LUCK, OR, 'I LOOK BETTER IN BLAK.'

I don’t need a man

I need men

For attention and conversation

Sorry, not intimacy

To he, I have loved in my youth

I am still in love with the memory

But, I perceive your outlook has changed

And it is no longer positive

I may have felt the desire to restore you to your former contentment

When I noticed you to be unhappy

I am not jealous of your partner

Nor wish to take her place

I just wish for you all to be at peace

And when you try to placate me

With your well chosen and diplomatic words

I see through it

And surely see through your projections

And the shadows that they cast

You who cannot see me as your equal

Although, I am a Goddess, and I am a Queen,

Not your court jester

And I have treated you with respect, and like a King

Although not my King

I see you with my 20/20 vision

While you see me through a fractured lens

Pity I must let you go

As the potential

Could have been highly creative and healing

And of equal benefit to us both

I am still tainted in your eyes

As, you listened to

The judgements of the jealous

And the desperate

Whom where paranoid of my good intentions

I know what they communicated to you

Their false truths

I know you believed them and played their game

Losing another woman of grace, beauty and spirit

Such as if, she had just stepped out of a Gustave Klimt painting

Knowing that karma threw you a loosing dice

As my poor communication did to me

I forgave you

Believing that if you understood my good intentions

You would be beside yourself with regret

So, I forgave you


But perhaps, you didn’t understand

And still do not respect

Instead deny and placate

So, this tangled thread I sever

Finally understanding that those projections

I just cannot convince you that they are illusory

And must cease from trying

And even though I know it’s unjust

With my absolute innocence from those said crimes

You and your entourage, where convinced I was guilty of

I must now, with my sharpened axe, cut this thread

And ignore a tainted friendship

That is undermining

And, should you even notice,

I’ll give you a meaningless placation

I’m listening to the songs of my sisters now

And, ‘I look better in blak.'

'Better In Blak' here https://ThelmaPlum.lnk.to/bibAY.

(C) Jayne McClure 2021

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