slipping through the door.

A moment if weakness, a gap in the idea of stability, someone left the door to my mind slightly ajar and you slipped in.

Hello again, how unfortunately wonderful it is to see you. I have missed you.

Drinking from the tap that poisons me, I relish in the water that drips from it. Soaking in every drop and watching every sparkle that emulates from the light hitting it at just the right angle, I take advantage of the happiness that teases my mental well-being.

I smile, I laugh, I cry. It takes everything within me not to get sucked back into the blackhole that surrounds us – as appealing as it appears from this side.

Sometimes, I find myself longing to feel the weight of you on me. All over, my senses tingle at the thought of being wrapped in your protection once more, with nothing but dangerous intentions between us.

The days of old call, screaming through all the memories in my head to grab my full attention, and of course, I let it happen. I even go as far as to escort them to the front, close my eyes, and give them a spotlight.

Front and center, we thrive – stealing the beauty of the sunrise away from itself on the jetty, thieving the dramatic emotions of the storm, and encapsulating the sentiment of the full moon, whilst laying in each other’s arms on your lawn. All the memories replaying at the same time, all coming at me, all filling me with sensations of ecstasy, as if no time had passed and nothing had happened.

Forever in love, forever destined, and forever around. We will never be finished, you know it, I know it, and it is our reality.

I can wake up as many times as I want, I can satisfy the logic in my head, and I can reason my way out of us. But the door will never be fully closed, always to remain ajar, whether I’d like it to or not.

With our gravitational pull stronger than that of the gravity that keeps us grounded, I’ll see you the next time you decide to waltz freely into the property that belongs to you, the real-estate that barely reached market before being entranced by our connection, the soul that rightfully fits your own.

Goodbye for now, my love – the first and the brightest. Goodbye to my best friend, the one that knows me deeper than any.

Goodbye to my future, one day to be reunited, until death do us part.