Situationship

You used to dismiss my feelings

when they conflicted with your own

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And when things went wrong

you played the victim

Made me feel like I was the problem

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You couldn't handle me

unless I was at my best

because it reminded you

of the demons shoved in your chest

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The ones you hide from others to see

The ones you'd rather not look at

The ones that I could see clearly

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It made you uncomfortable

when I held you accountable

Made you feel like you were less

but never considered that

I just was asking for mutual respect

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You were hot and cold, child

when I just tried to be an adult

and set to resolve things

we could have easily talked about

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But you turned it into drama

in your tumultuous mind

because anything with feelings

you don't know how to figure out

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Couldn't regulate your own emotions

so you blamed me every time you hit the brink

Held me responsible for your feelings

Well, I ain't responsible for your shit

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When you didn't get your way

you'd give me the silent treatment

Made me go from

feeling seen to feeling invisible

From feeling loved to feeling unbearable

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I used to make excuses for you

saying 'he's just an insecure young man'

Maybe if I show him how to love himself

maybe he'll understand

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what real love is

and how you should treat a real woman

But that was just a valiant effort

not even a woman of my caliber

could make happen

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It all made sense in retrospect

It's all clear now looking back

You can't help a boy grow into a man

when he's still childishly clinging onto the very demons he's been projecting onto you

so he can avoid facing them

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Believing too much in your potential

only nearly made me mental

You took my love for a joy ride

but my heart space isn't your rental

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Trying to work with your childish pleads

made me realize your inner demon's greed

and…

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Now I'm done sitting here

accepting your bad behavior

and making excuses

Because if I'm being real with myself

you were emotionally abusive

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I deserve so much better

Much better than the half-ass excuse

for an effort in love that you

threw out as soon as it got too real

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Yeah I wasn't perfect through the mess

but at least I'm grown enough to admit it

Maybe when your done being a child

you'll grow up and realize what it takes

to be a man who can truly love a woman