I know I'm confusing the universe with my vivid thoughts of me & my future mate
Indulging in one of those exotic dates
But when the time is set for intentions, I just stare and stand in such a state
Like a patron of a local food shop, rocking back & forth studying the menu
Wondering if you should try, then I began to
Shuffle from right to left, oh is this the part where I just...
Ugh what is wrong with me?!
I've been alone for so long, lonely doesn't seem that lonely at all
My daydreams of being in a union, where all of our adventures
Becomes a vivid viewing
From the organic greet or kismet meet, through conversations & late
night elations
I guess I imagined my mate would be at a distance
Whenever I searched for closer there was some resistance
Wild thoughts of us getting to know one another, starting as friends then becoming lovers
Eager anticipation of our next physical meet
My mind conjured up some amazing feats
But when it's time to turn those visions into reality
My mind forms this duality of yes and no-
You know you want this and I don't think I'm ready to go
All the scenarios of the union goes up in flames
Then I start kicking myself for being this lame
It's no wonder my person haven't shown up
I do this dance & now I'm stuck, wanting, dreaming,
Even believing of needing this spiritual connection that's ethereal
But all of my self-sabotage & self doubt becomes serial
Now I'm questioning wanting this relation
All of the back & forth becomes an abomination
I've been single for so long, it's become my new norm
I guess it'll be this way until the universe shakes some sense into me
And propels me into my destiny
About the Creator
Mesaye
From the moment I read my first Edgar Allen Poe story when I was 12 yrs old, I knew what made my heart flutter & what drove my imagination. Writing has been something I’ve loved doing, fell far away from & am now drawn back to it!
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This is a really great poem and I love how descriptive it is.