Sincere Melodrama

Have I gone to heaven?

Or is this temporary?

Either way,

I am finally free.

I had spent centuries in sadness.

Wallowing in empty gardens.

My walls stained permanent black.

Curtains always drawn.

Furniture duller than my life.

Paintings staring in sadness.

Endless monotonous work.

Unannounced,

I was free.

I had opened the doors,

Went past the gardens.

Into the light,

Observing the new.

The differences,

What was familiar.

It was all present.

Life had looked promising.

Opportunities arose.

It was a happy day,

The happiest in my life.

Is this my happy ending?

Or am I like Icarus?

Close to burning up?

Maybe both?

I couldn't tell you.

I am sincerely happy

Astronomically happy,

I could fall to the ground,

Roll in the grass,

Start a Barbeque party,

And laugh until I pass out.

For now,

I am still here,

In a dull state of mind.

Hoping one day,

I will see you again.