My heart is quiet and cold
He walks away as if we are not friends of old
It seems today I am just one of the crowd
Why must this silence be so loud?
My voice chokes up
All my sadness bottled up
Down my face tears wish to run
Why can’t this day be done?
I try to fake a smile
Six feet under has become a mile
He ignores me…
Why can’t I just leave?
My nose begins to run
But I can’t let the tears come
I must stay strong
Why has this day turned out so wrong?
I don’t know what to do
I wish that fact wasn’t true
I reach out for his hand
And on his it does land
But he doesn’t grab nor try
God, why can’t that be a lie?
Our hands brush ever so lightly
I guess he has no time for me
Down the stairs he goes
His bad mood in tow
Up the stairs I go
My broken heart in tow
A few tears leak out
My mind is full of doubt
I fake yawns to him the tears
I don’t want my classmates to jeer
Later I’ll use the headache excuse
To cry my eyes out without excuse
Why didn’t I follow him down the stairs?
Was it because I thought he didn’t care?
I should have tried harder to make things better
Maybe if I wrote him a letter…
Who am I kidding?
With love there is no winning
There is only stalemate
I feel the tears trying to open a floodgate
I know he didn’t mean to make me feel this way
But I was already having a bad day
I woke up on the sad side of the bed
Making my body lead
I desperately needed him, but I was forsaken
For my spot beside him was taken
I walked around trying to clear my mind
Hoping he wouldn’t think I was unkind
But now he thinks he is forsaken
He is clearly mistaken
And so the misunderstanding began
One can still hope for a happy end