Silence/What About Me?

"SILENCE/WHAT ABOUT ME?"

Two joint poems derived from my first completed journal, Black and Blue (2018-2019). Written June 4th and June 10th 2018.

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The absence of human

conversation

is music to my soul.

All genres register through

my brain and enter my heart

through different veins,

but this type of white noise?

Priceless.

Humming sound of the AC might even be

too much heavy metal

during this very second that I'm

tryna smooth it out with some piano jazz.

Why is she so comfortable with being alone?

Why are you so uncomfortable with spending one infinite second of your time

doing absolutely nothing?

How are those two

simultaneously me?

Exist and yet let the soul LIVE, Lefty.

Exist, and yet, LIVE.

"Hey, how's your day going?

Did you sleep well?

Are you feeling good today?

what did you eat this morning?"

But what about me?

"How's your family doing?

Are you feeling better?

Did you eat today?

Does it still hurt you?"

But what about me?

"Do you need anything?

Should I get that for you?

Do you need to check in with me?

Can we talk about this now?"

But...WHAT ABOUT ME?

"Why are you crying?

What's the matter?

How much do you need?

Why don't you talk to me?"

But, what about me?

"Why would you do this to yourself?

Why aren't you smiling?

Who hurt you?

Are you feeling better?

You know I love you, right?

Doesn't it feel great to be smiling?

Aren't you at peace now?

Aren't you happy again?"

But what

about

ME?