Silence

Dear, silence,

I longed for you when you were forced

against a wall,

frightened

alone

angry

And miserable.

I needed you, craved for you even.

As if my stomach growled in a torment of

malnourishment,

Mouth-watering for the touch of your warmth to my parched,

splitting

dry

bleeding

lips.

Where were you when I was COMPLETE -

Complete with the clutter

Clunking

Clinking

And Bangs.

As you deserted me, so did people.

I heard your footsteps –

On the porch

Thud

Doorstep

Thud

Staircase

Thud

Behind my door like a lingering

shadow.

You slowly open it.

The anticipation is unbearable.

Creak

Through the darkness

your face

not bright

light

And warm

as I imagined.

But!

Dark

Harsh

Cold

And uncanny.

You reach out,

Grasping your hand around my throat.

Brittle

Rough

Like sandpaper your hands are.

I shiver away, your beastly presence stays near.

I grow

more

alone

afraid

bitter

And

silent

silent

silent.

Oh, how the silence is deafening.

I thought you were supposed to be safe,

warm

light

kind

And full of heart.

But!

You are my worst nightmare come

true.

I thought you were a friend.

Oh, silence –

Why are you so deadly?

You creep in

when I

am alone.

Not a soul in sight

But you and I.

Leave me now.

I no longer linger for your presence.

When you are here, Oh, silence,

I pray you had never come.

And when you are far,

out of sight.

I wish you near.

Goodnight, silence.

I desire you no more.

Silence

Silence

Silence

Oh, what a conundrum you put forth.

You are the best of me and the worst of me.

Sincerely, your greatest admirer and most horrid critic.