heart starts to race
breathing too heavily
the world gets bleary
my eyes turn red.
i can hear your insults
spinning round in my head.
you jab and you jaunt,
because you know that's how i am;
you know that i can't control my anger
so you swear when you can.
you circle around me
and joke and curse,
expecting me at any moment
to explode in a burst
and tear you to pieces with my short-tempered words;
figurative blood goes flying
because you know it hurts.
i can't just stand there and take it
for all my people
when you yell and you scream
from your "high steeple."
you hate me because
of what i believe in
(and the devil knows
that i'm quick to anger)
you hate me because
"oh, because it's just fun!"
i sit and i try to sit perfectly still.
hopefully it doesn't reveal that i will,
when i finally have some time to myself,
throw a couple things off of my shelf
and watch them shatter on the floor
instead of slamming a face in the door.
breathe in, breathe out--
you have to control yourself, y'know?
it's not that easy.
if you say so...
just calm down,
go drink some water,
go outside and watch the birds flutter
your words are not the world to me.
just cuz you hate me doesn't mean
i have to fight back against your shizzle
even if it is, really, just shizzle.
don't try to get me riled up anymore
i'm just gonna walk out the door.
don't ask for a fight, when you call yourself "Christian"
cuz if you're lucky enough,
you're not gonna get one.
***
phew. writing this poem prevented me from arguing unnecessarily with a certain politically-sided person who was cursing out other Christians repetitively.
i rather like free-verse!
and no, i've never gotten into a real fight before, i've only fought mentally. as if that counts.
About the Creator
Chloe
she’s back.
a prodigious writer at 14, she has just completed a 100,000+ word book and is looking for publishers.
super opinionated.
writes free-verse about annoying people.
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