if my early life
was a painting
you would see
nearly everyone
approving of me
forecasting yellow
I was beaming
and friendly
to any and all
that came near
but behind the curtains
of that careful fasade
the colors were scribbled
and smeared
that “mess”
was pushed down
denied for the crowd
for my “happiness”
depended on them
what would happen
I wondered
if tears
replaced smiles
and I showed the
darkness within
the scribbles
got antsy
they started pushing
right through
and begged
me to cut
their way free
that compulsion
denied
but the remnants
left me drowning
at sea
midnight blue water
energy gone
they saw red
while my glasses
were gray
with my last
gulp of air
my voice cried out
“I’m not sure
I can go on”
help arrived
I survived
as she helped
me mend
my wounds
darkness still
sneaks in
at times
nearly as heavy
as before
the coping skills
the med
the therapy
they help me
stay afloat
more than that
I once again
feel the gentle breeze
of hope
my painting
is prismatic
but shadowed
a masterpiece
nonetheless
as the darkness
and pain
endowed depth
and compassion
known only by a few
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