Seeking Clarity
Helplessly lost in a fathomless rewind.
I still find myself lost back in time.
Helpless to stop the perpetual rewind.
Always searching for some clarity.
Hoping some new answers will appear to me.
I'm stuck in this loop, deep inside my mind.
Is it really possible that I'll heal with time?
.
So many questions you've dodged
Mistruths conveniently sprinkled all about.
Dug down so deep beneath your charade.
I was so overwhelmed and distraught.
All you could do was scream and shout
While I swayed upon my feet,
Horror struck by what I'd revealed behind your deceptive shade.
.
Those manipulations temporarily cloaked all that you are.
Now I've ripped off the Band-Aid,
Knowing that this will surely scar.
For a wound so severe that it nearly takes your life?
Well, it's not one that will heal with medication and sleep.
No, not in this instance.
You've cut me far too deep.
.
I'm bracing for the impact
After revealing your true colors.
Reeling from the reality of what you are
Versus who I'd believed you to be.
Talk about a mind-blowing discrepancy.
.
Might as well have cemented my feet to your anchor
Since you insist on keeping me down.
Left me lying there, watching as I drown.
Without any thought for any other
You could not care less if our children were torn from their mother.
.
Yet when the mood strikes you,
You're the one that will smother.
You'd hardly let me breathe.
Not out of love or genuine devotion.
Only to prevent me from ever finding another
That's why you still kept me dangling there upon your toxic tether.
. . .
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